Fear Eating

I apologize for not blogging for the past week, trust me, the choice was not my own. Thanks to my authentic living, I've not had power, water, and internet at some point all week and I will continue to not have internet until seemingly forever. 

This was written on Tuesday, when I simply didn't have power, water and internet. 

Unseasonable torrential rains have caused winds to blow down power lines and in turn, my entire village was without power from about 4 am to 4 pm today. I'm not proud of this but when the electricity goes out, all of my actions are marked by panic. In rural China, no one can give you a quote of when exactly the power will come back and that's just what I need. 

Instead, I lose control of my basic emotions. In my haze, I don't know what I'm doing. Today, I wasn't even hungry but it was market day and without even the basic capability of boiling water, I panicked and starting stuffing my face. The next thing I know, I'm eating three buns and a bowl of noodles and later, more than 20 mini oranges. Say hello to my new quirk, fear eating.